That being said, there is obviously something on my mind. My life has sped up and I feel like it has sped up without me. Time to play catch up. This intro is getting old...
Meat and potatoes of it: I, Connor P. Hamby, want to work overseas for a purpose greater than myself. I want to travel distances further than I'm prepared for, I want to converse with people I cannot converse with and I want to be uncomfortable. I'm still in the middle of putting the why into words but I just know that they are true. Anyone reading this knows the where of my desires lie. I just love it there, I love the food, I love the people and I love its attitude or lack there of one.
Well my friend overseas emailed me with the plan to get me there. The plan is not tricky but has been tweaked for the recent economic situation. You see the company doing the sending is financially responsible for everyone they send and since times are funny right now they have cut down on their numbers and are only sending people to "high need" areas. The plan is tweaked in such a way so that I end up where I would work best, the place where I want to go and I wouldn't get there till around August of 2010.
The Catch: For all this to go down as planned it needs to start ahead of the curve. I know it sounds like "the plan" is all behind-the-scenes and against the rules but it would really just involve some old fashioned word-of-mouth referrals. It all has become time sensitive. The time has come to get this ball rolling and the plan needs to start right about... sooner than I'm ready for.
I was so ready for this a month ago but things keep popping up. Not even bad things, just things. Things I'm just have to wait out. If anyone knows me well enough, I don't really jump at things quickly, or even at all. Jumping may be a bad verb for me. The only thing I've ever jumped at, maybe, is a second bowl of ice cream. So I'm sure I'll keep writing these things down in the future, as ambiguous as possible of course.
In the words of Danny Ocean to Linus Caldwell, "you're either in or you're out... right now"
A lot of people I know have said that you when you know you're not ready for something this important, that means you're ready. Because none of us are ever ready for what God wants to do with us. But the ones with success are the ones who persevere in honest self-evaluation.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure if they're right, at least not fully, but the worth of any saying is up to the listener.
So, in short, be honest in your evaluations, and seek after that which God has given you desire. After all, those desires are what make you the Connor Hamby we all know and love.