a greater obstacle

I really want to fill this page with witty comments and wise banter about how I see this life in front of me. But I can't right now; is it just not in my mind or am I just tired from work or is it not in my genes at all? Maybe this just isn't what I am good at. I have recently discovered, well not discovered but maybe verified, when it comes to telling my stories, I tell them in a very scattered way. Well it's time to just go with that...

Here's out my life goes at the moment, I don't know what to do. I thought I had my goals in place and that I was on the right track to achieve them. I had anticipated there would be obstacles, those little things that would slow you down or make you change a tiny part while still maintaining the original goal.

I didn't know there would be things showing up in my life that I can't even call obstacles, but something bigger than that. They were new directions. But they greatly affect my original goals. Now that I've seen these new things standing in my way, I am not even discouraged. However confusion has become the my main trait.

I now have more than one thing in my field of vision. This one more thing came out of nowhere. It came from somewhere I had never thought of, somewhere I had never been and somewhere truly good. My original goal is so true and so right and so...Connor. What do you I do in the mean time when I come across something else, something that has so much potential, pushes me further than I know how to go and a place I know I will eventually end up anyway. But is the timing right? Is this what I am supposed to see now or is it just the greatest distraction I have ever seen?

Then the fear comes in. Do I continue on my path toward that long-held goal that I know is right for me? It is not a bad way to go, I go ahead and do my original plan and have the time of my life and come back to maybe find a way to do it all over again. BUT if I do that, will that other great plan still be there, be available? There in lies the risk of it all. One plan greatly affects the other. It is even possible that doing one could end the other.

There we go,

I have one great plan for my life. One that would leave me speechless for years.

Then that other came along, that could possibly do the same.